Saturday, December 27, 2008
I am wishing that everyone had a wonderful Christmas. Mine is still being savored and has made me look at myself and my family in different ways. I still struggle with the who I am, what I am here to accomplish, and how did I end up with the family I have and who are they in relation to me and vis versa. Holidays are a struggle to polish up all our hurts and make up shiny personas that hide the real stories of who we are on the inside and all those hurts. And all those hurts seem to manifest more deeply at the holiday time. I have been cleaning, scrubbing and painting and decorating trying to make my home the perfect backdrop for a wonderful Christmas. I have been in a frenzy to make everything perfect, that having the perfect backdrop would make it all a wonderful christmas story just like in the movies.